WOW! Its been a long time since I've added anything to this little blog and so much has happened, where to start? I haven't been only a SAHM in a very long time as I've been taking full time college classes at Clark College from fall 2012 until I graduated with my AA this past fall. As of mid February we've relocated just outside the city of Spokane WA so that I can continue my education at EWU. I've always wanted my degree but since Chris and I had our first daughter when I was barely 20 its always been a struggle to balance finances with aspirations and for obvious reasons I worked 40hrs a week and sometimes even two jobs during my early to mid 20's. It wasn't until January of 2009 that I was actually able to see myself going back to school when I was laid off my low paying crappy job. As I looked at my future I saw myself working similar jobs for crappy pay and crappy hours it was looking pretty bleak, even as I knew that I needed to make some serious changes about my education I truly wondered if I was SMART enough to earn a college degree. To go EVEN further back I had indeed started on my degree right out of high school but lost my grandmother to a long battle with cancer my first quarter in and at the end of my second quarter I was expecting our first daughter and decided to take time off to...yes WORK to provide for our baby. After our baby came I jumped right back into school when she was two and a half months old but I could feel something was off. I was always tired, very forgetful, and just overall out of it. I struggled through a few quarters before it came to light that I had a SERIOUS thyroid problem that caused a serious hormone imbalance in my body but by that point I was already in academic trouble because of my poor grades so I went back to work but this time I worked TWO jobs while raising our almost two year old. By the time I worked up the guts to actually put one foot in front of the other and finally went back to school it was fall 2010 and Chris and I were getting ready to celebrate our second daughters first birthday and I was SHOCKED when the first paper I submitted earned an "A" grade..when I mean "A" I mean 100%! I was freaking out and actually called my mom and a close friend and exclaimed to them "See I'm not STUPID!!". Its amazing what self doubt can do to a person added to that the nasty little comments made by my own family about how I was a drop out and would never go back to school or amount to much of anything or how about my personal favorite that I wasn't smart enough to earn a college degree.
| In the end WE DID IT! As my husband says "One down, two to go!" |
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